After I looked things over, I stood up and said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, “Don’t be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your families, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your homes.”

15 When our enemies heard that we were aware of their plot and that God had frustrated it, we all returned to the wall, each to our own work.

Nehemiah 4:14-1

Over the past two months I have been through the motions of receiving a Thyroid Cancer diagnosis. That sounds scary, parts of it are. But I just want say, I am fully aware that this not life threatening. So I don’t want anyone to take it that way, because I know people are walking through situations that are.

So in a sense I sit in the boat again and I see the storm swirling. As I told the women at the She Lives Fearless Conference, I recognize this wind, these waves ,they threaten me, but I remember how he met me at the NICU. I recall how he pulled me from PPD, how he worked when I could not. Not only that, but the people he sends to minister to you. The army prayerful people I have in my life, the podcast that says the right words at the right time. The fact that I am reading through Nehemiah at this moment. The encouragement is not by accident my friends. So,  I will hold on to those moments of victory, instead of downing in the moments of uncertainty in front of me. Because I know this storm, and I KNOW my God.

Some appointments as I stare at the floor or the ceiling, of waiting rooms, exam rooms and such, they are not easy. My thought is, if I can show you my valley, I can show you how he meets me there. If I show you my walk and the moments where he carries me. Maybe you too will find him, and ask him to meet you where you are at.

I do not know all of my outcomes. I am grateful for a good prognosis because apparently thyroid cancer is one the “better” ones to have. I am unsettled at times by all the percentages of scenarios as I am present different options and decisions to make. However, I am 100%  certain that not only is he with me, he has already written my story. So I do not have to worry, but I do have to this out and follow through. What a blessing that I have him to rely on

I know a lot of us are walking valleys, some deeper than others, on any given day. In any given week or month. That weighs heavy, I pray hard for those I smile at or encounter as I walk in and out of the cancer center. For I know some are in-fact walking a longer or deeper valley. Like the woman I met today in the elevator wearing her shirt that stated, “God is with you.” She has 30 more days of treatment to go, and now she knows I pray for her daily.

I still have recipes to cook and write, I have the most wonderful project EVER in front of me. I am continually going back to the wall, please let the enemy know his plans have been frustrated. For only I will only use to further God’s glory.